December 29, 2011

I can’t even begin to count the number of times this year I’ve mumbled, “this is the worst year of my life.”

Grandpa died in June. There are still times I forget he’s gone and expect to see him walk through the door and hug me tight. It’s been six months already, but there are plenty of quiet moments when my mind drifts to him and I’m overwhelmed by tears.

We had major (read: expensive!) car repair work done 4 times between January and August. Just when we were sure it would run like new for years, a drunk driver totaled it and took away our family car, leaving us to pile 3 kids into a teeny sedan.

We had plenty of money and health woes, too. Nothing major, but it’s been one thing after another non-stop this entire year. Things had finally settled, we decided on a van to buy and as we were getting our ducks in a row, we got a letter in the mail on December 9th that the house we’ve been renting for nearly 2 years is going into foreclosure and is being auctioned on the county courthouse steps Jan 3rd. Merry Christmas. So now we’re rushing around trying to buy our first house and it’s just not exactly ideal.

I’ve had so much going on in my personal life I kind of checked out on my blog. I’ve been sewing, but mostly for gifts and family and things that aren’t especially blog fodder. I’ve just felt completely overwhelmed by everything we’re dealing with, compounded by Christmas, and who cares about blogging, right?

So while I was off licking my wounds, I was learning more about the year other people have been having. There’s something so humbling about a huge reality check on life, isn’t there? Sure, we had to have the car fixed, but we had the money to do it. We survived the accident with barely any physical signs. This isn’t our house we’re losing, and in fact, we’re in a position to buy right now. We’ve never had to worry about having a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs or food on our table. Life might not have been smooth this year, but while we mourn and grieve for the loss of my Grandpa, we’re rejoicing in the healthy, beautiful baby girl we welcomed. How lucky are we?

I’m not sad to see 2011 end. It HAS been rough. I’ve prayed hard, cried harder, and laughed until my sides hurt. I’ve grown to cherish life even more, and learned a hard lesson about how you can’t plan for the unexpected. I’m ready for 2012 and all the amazing things it has to offer. I’ve got some things to blog about in the coming weeks, but I assume with the (hopefully!) house buying, packing and moving, I might not be posting much in the way of crafting. I hope you’ll keep coming back, though, as I can’t stay away for long!

So enjoy some pictures of the three greatest blessings in my life enjoying the Christmas holidays! Happy New Year!

11 Responses to “perspective”

  1. Dhilma said:

    A Very Happy New year to you and your family! Hope it is better than 2011.

  2. Esther said:

    Oh, I know what you mean about 2011. There was something evil in the stars now wasn’t it! I got stuck in a toxic work environment, switched jobs (only to find out it was equally crap) and I ended 2011 with a burnout, nice. Luckily there were some perks too (I got married!!), but I cannot wait to start 2012 to be honest. So I’ll drink to you on having a better year!

  3. Lara said:

    I wish you a wonderful 2012!!! And hope everything will get better!!!

  4. Heather said:

    I’ve enjoyed your blog for sometime now. You have awesome talent! Sorry your year has been rough, I hope things will turn around for you. Thanks for the perspective reminder too.

  5. Rachel said:

    That is quite the year you have had! I love that you can look back on it was good perspective and realize that things could be a lot worse. What a beautiful family you have. I wish you the best in 2012!

  6. Lalady said:

    I always enjoy reading your blog! Hope this next year is better for you and your family.

  7. Chelsea said:

    I just found your blog a few weeks ago, through pinterest. So please keep posting great sewing projects! I have two young kids, so I especially enjoy the stuff you make for your daughters.

    I hope your 2012 is better than you can even imagine right now!

  8. Rachel said:

    You have a beautiful family Melissa. I wish you happiness for the new year.

  9. karie said:

    As a friend said earlier today: Wishing you a better 2012 than 2011, because we all deserve it! I’ll be praying as you pack, move, unpack, adjust, and find a new normal! I appreciate the perspective and the little glimpses of your crafting world!

  10. konstantsia said:

    Hello! I am your new reader and I like your blog very much. I read your post and I wanted to say you are very blessed woman and after all your losses this year your got wisdom. Happy New Year to you and your family! I hope you have a better 2012!

  11. Chelsea "Chellybean" said:

    Hi, I am a forever returning visitor to your blog, This post in amazing, I know the projects that I look forward to each visit were not here, but I love to hear people realize that their woes, and these to some are poison, are out weighed by the positive things in their life, I can honestly say that I am in a very similar boat with 2011 and am glad that it has come to an end, and I really look forward to shooting for a better 2012 All I can say is chin up darling, you are amazing and you are very lucky to have such a practical perspective on life: Your children are just adorable btw!! You have such a beautiful family and I am in awe that you cherish them so much to push through the obstacles of life!! Stay Shiny and I cannot wait to see some more projects!!!!

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